This is my second blog, describing my thoughts on people who are/were involved in my life, without naming them on here. I’m hoping HTML works on here cause it’s gonna be embarrassing if there’s just codes and such Ôō anyway, continue. 1. I feel so, entrigued when I talk with you. Everything about you makes me want you even more. But I know that’s the opposite of what you want. So i’ve tried to keep away. I feel like I’m being led on, and I don’t know if that’s what you’re trying to do or not, either way, I’m being hurt daily by the thought of what’s going on.
2. Everything about you amazes me :D you make me feel so wanted, needed, special. Though we’ve kinda stopped talking again. We hvent had a proper conversation since.. Soundwaveish. That’s a pretty long time /: BUT YOUVE BEEN BUSY, and this is just me being clingy. I don’t want to lose you, or push you away. So ill attempt to make conversation again when I feel it’s all good in tha hood. I love you.
3. HAR HAR HAR HAR AT YOU. you’ve hurt me so much. Tables shall turn on yourself. Goodluck chasing your dream. Hypocritical. Lying. POOHEAD. chyeaaaaaahbetch.
4. bestest besto anyone could ask for. You helped me so much the other day. More than anyone could ask for. I loveeee chu.
5. I don’t know if you know this but I had a crush on you. And earlier today you did something that really hurt me >__^
6. I don’t know you that well, but you’re a cool as cool kid. Better than cool, you’re raaadcool. Good hangs, considering I thought you hated me! Haha good times.
7. I miss you alot :) can’t wait to see you again. I’m so happy for you aswell. You know why. Haha ^_^ even though we’ve not known each other that long, i’d definately consider you one of my closest friends. ILY!
I’m not making it that easy to guess am I D:
anyway progress with your life :)
Jaya Wayan Degur. Half Indonesian. Half English. 166cm tall. 79kg heavy. 15 years of age. Unhealthy. Unfit. Unhappy. Self concious. Regretting recent decisions. Wanting a close friend. Experiencing so much. Receiving so much hate. Receiving so much love, false love. Being led on. Unwillingly letting her lead me on. Uncertain what my future holds. Hating everything that I shouldn’t. In love. Not okay. Always here to listen. Losing friends. Not gaining friends. Unconfident with myself. Sick & sore. Wanting a job. Greatful for the friends that remain. Ungrateful of the friends who have left me at important points in my life. Missing so many people. Not missing very little. Constantly complaining. Fed up with people who think they know absolutely everything. Aggressive when i’m tired, hungry or upset. Ehhh iuno what else to add. Shall edit when there’s something positive to add.
on saturday night, Haylee arrived at Fairy Meadow train station at 8:20. there began my weekend.
Ricky, Shelby, Haylee and I, trekked around for a while, walked up through Dalton Park, almost got chased by guard dogs. stupid touch football. then walked along the footpath by Fairy Meadow beach…. :| ihy.
it was a nice walk up that way. except for my paranoia.
we went into the leisure resort, to buy redbulls. i hid my face the whole time, fear of being seen by my old boss. pricks. the girl that worked in there didn’t know what was going on. but i’m jealous. she had a hat. i never got a hat or name badge when i worked there. /dead.
turns out there was no redbulls. so we went to towradgi petrol station, to kill the time. Shelby wanted to surprise Andrew by being at his work when he finished at 11pm. the time when we got to the servo was 9ish.
with the energy drinks in Haylee’s bag, we walked to towradgi soccer grounds. sat and chilled in the cool night air for a while, before deciding that Haylee and I would leave to get an early night for soundwave. Ricky and Shelby came back with us, again, to kill time.
as we were departing, Ricky decided it would be funny to show everyone how i giggle like a school girl when he tickles me.
NOT GONNA HAPPEN. i legged it like the road runner, legit outran him and he had just finished two v’s.
he gave up on me half way down the street. i kept running. /win
so after that, we called a truce, and kept walking home in the dark.
as we passed Towradgi and started venturing into Fairy Meadow along Carter’s Lane. as we got halfway down, Ricky broke the truce. :( bitch.
everyone in the surrounding houses would have heard my girly giggle. not to mention Haylee and Shelby.. /dead.
well, as we neared my street, laughs were had, and jokes made. it was a great night.
then we woke. At 5:00am jdhfjagnrnafhfjkgf. It was death upon me. everything was so dark. like it was 12am.
but we were so excited for the day ahead of us!
at 6ish, Haylee and i walked out of my door, and onto the street. cold air, pewpewpew’ing against our skin >< we got to Fairy Meadow train station, and bought our tickets… :D! then as we waited for our train, we watched the sunrise. n_nawh.
everyone got on at Corrimal & Thirroul. our group was at least ten people big :D! When we got to central, we met up with heaps more people :D! Stan being one of them, i missed her heaps.
on the train to blacktown, Sarah got on. and she gave me my bracelet that she made! :D!!! Haylee coloured in my hair. weow, it’s still colourfull! :D! purple/pink. hehe.
BLACKTOWN TRAIN STATION what a kerfuffle.
we arrived, and found everyone and what not, and travelled down to try find a taxi. WOW. there was too many of us. lol >:|
so as the others got one, i can’t remember who exactly, Haylee and I stayed back and tried to find another. so many drove past, but didnt even acknowledge them. in the end, Haylee ended up having to show some skin. HAHA psych.
anyway, $20 later, we were dropped off in the middle of the road, and made our way up to the gates. Haylee’s phone shit it so many times. stupid hiptops.
at first, it wouldnt let her do anything, call/text wise. making it hard to try and find Erin etc.
we lined up, in the line waiting for the gates to open. and when they did, all the people who werent inline pushed in at the front anyway. bleh. we were fair far at the front of the line to the doors though.
Haylee and i were split up at this point :( she had to go to a different line. /dies. an hour without her. in the sun. boiling it up. ahhhh it was so hot.
WHEN I did get in, i found Haylee straight away, she had a program/booklet for me. :)
we then walked to try and find the others. it wasn’t even that hard! but then again. that was before everyone got in :| it was a lot harder during the day.
the first band i watched, was Gallows. they put up a good show i thought. During it, JONNY CRAIG HIMSELF, walked past us. but put his earphones in and didn’t realise that I yelled his name to Mikala, Erica and Ricky. :) on the stage next to them was You Me At Six. wow, they were brilliant. got in the mosh with Ash, Trent and Stan, was funny seeing Ash try plow people back. haha n_n! ><!!! after You Me At Six, Ash had to lather herself up with sunscreen again. lol at her sunburnt-ness. This was around the time that Alexanra (oiisailor) hit me witha drink bottle. and didn’t even hug me >:( /cut. we bought some ridiculously priced drinks, laters $25. from here, Ash and i progressed towards the main stage, where we caught The Eagles Of Death Metal running late. Waiting for Alexisonfire the heat got to us, so we left after a few songs. DALLAS GREEN. IS. AM. AZING.. We found Stan and Trent again, and the cloakroom, where Ash kept her bag to keep it safe. Lost Stan and Trent again, and i found Haylee. Ash went off to the over eighteens area for drinks and to watch Paramore. THE RECEPTION WAS SO SHIT. I didn’t get Ash’s text until, thirty minutes after she sent it. Because i was holding her money, id and number for her bag, she couldnt get her bag, get into the over eighteens area or buy a drink. SUCKSRIGHT!? anyway i was with Haylee, and her friends, whom i dont remember their names, watching Paramore right from the side of the barrier. was pretty sick, out of the sun, near Hayley Williams and the first aid tent, which coincidently, we were trying to get into. Haylee’s friend Katie had heahtstroke, or something like that, and was really not well. But the first aid officers wouldn’t let Haylee or the others in. so we had to wait until she came out. we did. and she was sick again. :( not good. we started heading back up to find somewhere shady, we found the orange juice stand. n___n it was fun there. well. it wasn’t shit. Placebo and then AFI played below us, and it was good :) sitting there in the shade, all mellow. except for worrying about Brooke being nowhere to be found D: At around 6.30ish (pm) we made arrangements of where we shall be meeting Haylee again, after she got a shirt signed for Erin. we’d meet back at the orange juice stand at 7:30, after Katie and I were finished watching All Time Low. about two minutes after Katie, another two girls, and I had started heading towards the stage, Brooke was wandering down towards our direction. THIS MADE US HAPPY! haha it was an intense moment. with them back together, i decided to tag along considering i hadn’t a clue where my friends were. we got to All Time Low’s stage and stood around for a bit watching sound-check. Katie didn’t look well at all, so we left and went to get something to eat. Brooke was in the line for about half an hour, no joke. but it was worth it, cause Katie was feeling better afterwards. Seeing All Time Low from a distance was alright. They seemed to be teasing the crowd a fair bit ;D haha. about halfway through their set, we started heading back to the Orange juice stand, to meet up with Haylee again. as we walked down, someone spotted Haylee at the coakroom, along with Stan and Trent! Stan was shoeless, and Trent was dirty from the pit. the dust at that place was crazy. haha. so everyone was basically reunited! :D! at eight, The Almost were playing. we were all heading to that. boohyah! when we got to stage six, WE FOUND ERIN!! so exciting haha. we got there before The Aquabats had finished. HHAHAHAHAH SHIT. they were sooo awesome. i had only previously heard one song, and i thought they were like, mentally unstable or someshit. turns out they just REALLY like to please the crowd! haha <3 when they had finished, The Almost came on. Best. they were absolutely amazing. like. wewwwwwwwwww! /dead. but that’s when i lost Stan and Trent. ohwow! when Aaron (singer) crowd surfed, i lifted Haylee up and she ALMOST (pun intended) TOUCHED HIM! WEW! heehe. When The Almost finished, i took a trek to find them, but no hope, they were long gone D: and it was dark. ohwell. i went back and found Haylee, Erin, and met Sam (@samsunshine7), and another guy, who i forgot his name. ah. i know alot of people will disagree here, but i actually thought that Four Year Strong were good. the bitchy little fat chick that was about twelve years old, didnt even move off the barrier for Erin, I OFFERED TO SHOW SOME SKIN, tsk stupid girl. eh either way, Erin made it, with a little help by the guy that was next to the fat bitch. he kept shoving over, and shewas trying to resist and such. no luck on her behalf, Erin made it. when Enter Shikari came on, EVERYONE WENT INSANE. this was the first, main mosh i’ve been in. one person away from the barrier. shit my chest is bruised. D: can’t imagine how Erin would have felt. shiiiiit. but it was worth it. Enter Shikari absolutely made myday. when Liam (guitarist) stood on the barrier, i may or may not have seen Erin’s hand go straight for his crotch. HAHAHAHA. shiit i touched his leg. /dead. this is when i was hurting the most, i was pretty squashed up in front of three or four massive pricks. yessir. ahwell. i survived.
weow, it was a brilliant day, thanks to all the bands and my friends that i was with.
HOW MANY MORE DAYS, NONOENNOENNEONENNENEONENEON! how many more sleeps?! One. The train ride.
^_^ last night I found out that Haylee, @hayleebeee, cracks her knuckles in her sleep. And her snoring is so cute, it’s like /snoreeee. Ahhh-chuchuchu. < that is my attempted onomatopoeia-ic version of how she sounds when she breathes out. I nawww’d haha. ANYWAY SOUNDWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVE!
Haylee is here. I missed her.
And tomorrow I see Erin ^_^ I miss her too. And Stan. It’s gonna be like. A reunion. Of some sort. Tonight was pretty chill. Hanging with Shelby and Ricky. Got some energy drinks for teh morning. My eyes will be light brown! n_n it’s gonna be an early start. 5am wake up. Traino at 6:10ish. Train to central arrives at 7:57. zzzzz’s will be had. 8:06 train to blacktown, pewpewpew were on the bus to eastern creek. THEN IN THE LINE WEEEEEWHOO. See you there, ;)